I haven't responded individually for two reasons, firstly there were so many messages and secondly just thinking about it makes me cry and I didn't think that I could get through writing so many responses. I do hope you understand. It doesn't mean that I am not grateful or thankful, it is just something that I cannot bear at the moment.
I still feel pretty terrible. It comes and goes and if I just don't think about Benson I am fine. Well, you know, whatever fine is. So I am just trying not to think about him. As a plan it isn't going that well...
Thank you so much for joining in and for your posts for Five On Friday last week. Although I haven't commented on any of your posts, or really any posts, for the last two weeks or so I have read most all of your posts and certainly all of your Five On Friday posts. I am still here and keeping up with your news.
Thank you thank you thank you!
Sorry that I didn't podcast this week, I just didn't feel up to it, I couldn't do it without mentioning what had happened and then I would have cried and you really don't want to see a video of that do you. It would have made my crochet wet too and I couldn't have that could I.
My plan is to keep giving myself pep talks about pulling myself together with the hopes that I will be in a better frame of mind on Monday and then I will podcast again and try to resume whatever a normal life might be.
I have been trying to keep busy with work and other things. I have got quite a few lovely brand new things made for my shop which I will show you next week. I am planning a shop update probably on Tuesday or Wednesday. I will let you know.
Yesterday I went out to buy a ream of paper and came back with said ream of paper along with a basket, three candles, two packs of cards to use to print up as business cards, some envelopes, a load of wooden pegs and two bread rolls. Anyone know what that means?
You can see from all of this and from the way that I am writing that I am pretty scattered right now.
I better be OK by Monday because I have to have my first business meeting with the accountant about my taxes and I am terrified and I don't think she will appreciate me bursting into tears in her office!
So, I will put all of that behind me and try and pull myself together, get a grip and get on with this post otherwise you will all be running off in droves screaming about the crazy woman!!!!
Jumping right on in to Five On Friday.
As I didn't podcast this week, I thought I would upload a couple of videos taken in two rooms at work so that you can see around a bit more! I hope you like them.
First is The Bamboo Bedroom
Second is Lady Iliffe's Bedroom complete with the two shawls that you might remember I made to protect the furniture.
I haven't shown my blog readers my new blanket obsession. Sandra at Cherry Heart started making a blanket earlier in the year called her Happy Scrappy Squares Blanket and now I am making one too!
Mine is slightly different to Sandra's because I am using all sorts of different yarn weights - I think Sandra is just using sock yarn - and each of my pieces is a different size with a different number of stitches to Sandra. The principle is the same though.
It is only small at the moment, although growing each week. I have decided that I will only work on this on Sunday and will keep it as my treat to myself. The yarns I am using are a mix of the totally scrappy ends of balls that I have used up for other things - really, only the tiny bits that are left - and some tapestry wools that were given to me by a friend who had in turn been given to her by a friend having a clear out.
The idea for the look of the blanket is that it looks as though it was on the backseat of a Ford Capri in the 1970's. So far I love it and I love that it is totally random and scrappy!
A peek at some new yarns for a new project. Just thought you might like to see.
The Laundry Room renovations. Nearly done! I thought you might like to see the wall tiles that Hubby has now finished. Isn't he a clever fellow! I love how it looks. Trouble is, as I expect you have experienced in your own homes, it now makes me want to upgrade everything else! Don't worry though. I am not crazy, I won't get into that!!
The garden looks amazing right now so just a few shots so that you can see it!
These troughs have sweet peas in (left) and sunflowers (right). I will show them to you again as they grow!
That is for this week.
Thank you all once again for everything and for just being so great!
See you next week for Five On Friday and hopefully for some posts before then too.
Have a great weekend!